I was the one who was never going to have children. I was terrified of being a mother. I was absolutely certain I would screw up any child who was cursed with me as their parent. I was constantly told growing up that I would have awful children because as I was told, I was the worst child anyone could have.
So my husband and I went on our merry way for nearly an entire ten years. Immediately after I had been IUD'd all up, my husband came on on R&R from combat and we decided, "oh why not?" Of course we couldn't have decided that 2 weeks earlier I could have avoided that IUD pain.
Then a month after he returned home from his tour of combat we found out we were pregnant with our first of two daughters. We actually would have had three children but we lost our second pregnancy.
My girls have been the sun and the moon to my life. Without them there would not be me. I know that's not the most cool or en vogue thing to say, admitting that your children could mean so much to you. I know that some think that means they'll grow up to be incredibly spoiled but it's the truth, they are my sun and moon.
My girls make me see the world in a much more innocent way. I love the way they see it. My oldest daughter thinks everyone is the best person ever. She sees no evil in the world. My youngest daughter is shy like me but when a song is on that is the absolute most amazing moment in time. The world disappears and she's no longer shy.
My girls are the epitome of:
You've gotta dance like there's nobody watching,
Love like you'll never be hurt,
Sing like there's nobody listening."
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